Did you imagine that you’d be a mom at the age that you became a mom?
To be completely honest I never imagined myself becoming a mum. While all my friends talked about when they got older, getting married and raising a family, it was never on my radar. –Ironically, I was the first one out of my friends. It was meeting my husband that had me change my mind. We were together for about 8 years before we decided to start a family. For us it wasn’t easy. We went through loss, multiple procedures, multiple specialists, bed rest and pre term birth. Becoming a mum at the age of 28 and a mum of two at the age 32 was the age and the time that was planned for me. The universe speaks in the most mysterious ways.
Describe your children in a single sentence?
My first child – Ayaan is Magic.
My second child – Soliel is fire.
How have you changed as a person since becoming a mom?
Whoa this is a hard one. Funny enough, everyday I think about how my life has changed, and not necessarily how I have changed. I have def become more patient. This is by no means suggesting I am now a patient person, merely that I am a bit more patient. I have without a doubt become more aware of myself, and forced myself to be far more vulnerable and uncomfortable, in efforts to do better by my kids.
What has been the hardest thing about being a mom?
Is there anything that hasn’t been? In all seriousness though the vulnerability piece sticks out for me. Allowing myself to uncover my own deep rooted “shit”, work though it and make light of it. This is extremely important for me, as I truly believe it as it challenges me to be more present + remain that much more open for my kids. There is light in it all, and remembering that is half the battle.
What advice can you give our mama readers?
I think every mums journey is a different one. In saying that, you are NEVER alone. It’s ok to ask for help. It’s ok to cry and It’s ok for it not to always be ok. Someone recently told me that emotions and life is all impermanent. – This too you will get through!